Confessions of an "alcoholic"

I hope doing this is not an act of wasting time and life.Please tell me honestly if you think I suck in some ways by giving examples.I often feel helpless if all sides are trying to make me compromise them.Even a robot can't fulfill these wishes by tearing apart!

I'm very very sorry if I did offended any sides when I turned you down because that's not what I want to!I neither can't fight back my parents nor get into a fight with you,so conclusion is,there must be something wrong with me.

They say don't always blame it on yourself for everything because those are unneccessary.
So, who else to be blamed if someone did wrong and it wasn't my fault?
Just a feeling...someone is trying to tell me using maroon 5...

Sometimes,to be very honest,I don't completely trust some people...

All the laughing and talking are just not sincere and we fake it just to prevent any fight coming up.Besides,some people are doing things that(I think they know)get on people's nerves like me.The next thing is"Why do you think like that?We didn't mean it that way"The worst part is,they sound like you are guilty and you felt guilty again....perfect speaker~

I'm a human.I'm visible.
Yes I enjoy being quiet and listen to people's stories.
Yes I'm a super,crazy k-pop lover,which makes me look like an alien.

The thing is,please consider my time in if you want to consider me in in something.
It ain't fun to bully people indirectly and keep quiet like nothing happened.

You might believe me if I said I'm drunk now~