I like him

He ignores you, but you like him. He does nothing, but you fall for him, you miss him, even though you know he's never thought about you.

I like this line :)

He ignores you, but you like him. He does nothing, but you fall for him, you miss him, even

though you know he’s never thought about you.

I like this line :)

pervert

Hey stalker,

If you're able to stalk me till here, then let me tell you something~

STOP STALKING ME!!!!

well, not exactly...but please stop following me to do everything that I do!!! I don't want to hate you but you made me very insecure whenever being around you~I try not to be very blunt towards you but if you hit my nerves, I'm so gonna use my words to kick your ass back! If you feel more than friends towards me, then tell me! It's a lot better than doing these kind of weird things wanting me to give you comfort and smileys...

You could've text me instead of non-stop calling me if you have something very important to tell me..not the non-stop miss call which literally freaks me out!! It happens like two days in a row!!!

And don't for no reason sit beside me....YOU SHOCKED ME TO HELL!!!

WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE A FREAKIN' PERVERT?!!

I'm so gonna get depression because of your existence....

Please go back to your normal place...I can't tell you straight away~I hope my actions is clear enough to send you the message...I'm EXTREMELY uncomfortable whenever I think or see you...I'll kneel down if you do that...

He ignores you, but you like him. He does nothing, but you fall for him, you miss him, even

though you know he’s never thought about you.

I like this line :)

He ignores you

appreciation

just saw an article about appreciation...

yeap~we should appreciate what we have...

maybe me and you should have a 3 day holiday...we'll see what happens on friday~

anyway...while reading the article, I try to think of something good that happened to me.

YES! something which I have anticipated for a very long time had happened to me.

My angel had finally replied me!!!

the happiest thing is that he wants my sandwich biscuit <333

I finally get to taste the happiness of getting a reply from someone that you're sort of obligated to take care of~thank you~

and I had the rush of replying my angel immediately ^^

during this 3 days, I'll take the time to explore more of the world...I'll try to take note so that I won't do silly things~

Maybe you won't sit with me during history class, I'm ready for that...and I promise I won't give you that weird glance that me myself hated it soooo much...

we'll be normal...I'll be taking to adam...

in anyway, I won't act like bugging you or trying to impress you ok? I'll make it like you're nothing but just a friend to me^^

we're still good friends~I have faith in it~

Another 3 days?

I'll be frank. I'm sad.

The internet connection had finally came back, but I think I traded it with my friendship.

What's going on with me?

Today was like...the whole world is ignoring me. Is it something undesirable that I've done to them? or is it that you guys are stressed out until ignoring me? then why? because I can tolerate your problems and stress? I can only be ignored with a reason please~

or is it that I'm stressed until my brain wire was burnt? I'm stressed until I started to suspect things which are perfectly fine? or is it the karma that's coming to me because I mistreated her? I didn't mistreat her..I just want some space...I'm sincerely sorry here.....just leave me awhile....

I'm sorry if I bugged you to much...I know I'm ridiculous and sometimes impossible, I know I'm odd to randomly go to people's room and sit there for nothing...I..fine...my explanation is not convincing enough....I don't know if you can understand me if I tell you that I'm sorry now...You might just think I'm another weirdo...

I feel like crying...but crying is just making the vague look of sadness even obvious...why surface those undesirable things? I'll just keep quiet and let time and destiny do the others...I can't control much...I choose to believe in destiny....

They said when you have this kind of circumstance, it's actually that your world had turn around for 3 days...I could have just wait for 3 days and let the odd days go by....but....how many times have I said this to myself in a few months....that shouldn't happen...in this case, that has became an excuse to get away from your own mistake....

Wait...did I do any mistake? I doubt it. I never know, because I'm not even clear about who that person is and how do they think and how would you expect me to know what are they thinking? I don't wanna to take the risk to guess and make a mistake anymore....

But what if I'm wrong?....I believe in what I've done. I believe I've did the right thing and I did no mistake...except for the thing mentioned, other than that I believe I did not do wrong. I'm just quiet and that's all....

This time..I'll wait for 3 days....

Forgiveness

Forgiveness.

I want to say sorry, but would you forgive me?

This was the thought that popped in my mind when I was watching the video "Dear Malaysians"

Proud to say that the song was written and sung by my cousin in the ad which means the whole nation will see it :)

However, the end line change my mind.

Forgiveness doesn't change the past, but it brightens the future.

YES! I agree to this.

Sometimes I think that I am using the word "sorry" extravagantly. I always thought that things can be solved legally, like, I have officially said sorry to you, that means you had already forgiven me. That's merely my assumption. The truth is, not all of them had forgiven me. Yet I assume that I was forgiven and kept thinking why are these people avoiding me?

I hope the people who know me in the present, after seeing this article, please understand that I am trying to bond, I want to be friends. I mean real friends, not only the word friend but not talking and feeling good when encountering each other. Maybe I was trying to hard but...I seriously don't know~just tell me, I wouldn't mind if you tell me that I'm fat and ugly but don't give that weird look that I'm fat or ugly. Like I've mentioned previously, the expression of one's eyes hurts me more than the word coming from the mouth.

I rather you hurt me with words. That sounds odd but that's true.

SCREW the people who hates me and jealous of me! F**K OFF!

This animal is under stress and is harmful now!

F off...

F whoever that thinks there's always someone that adores and loves her even she like to give orders to them.
please, I feel suffocating if you keep coming to me...I mean, I'm not trying to break up from you, but can't you please leave me for a few days?

even if I ask you, I only ask like 2,3 days then I stop. I wouldn't have the courage or face to keep asking you, I force, even if I didn't like it, I know that I have to be with them eventually, because I 'm living with them.

It's not like if your friend shave left, you can't look for new friend~

I'm not your only friend..you have to meet new friends eventually~

why not follow the other CW? why everyday me.....

maybe I am too selfish, maybe it's just a meal, nothing big deal~

only this 2 weeks then I'm free as long as I want.

go out and meet some new friends for heaven's sake~

go eat with new people for god's sake~

if you think people don't understand you then you refuse to be with them, then change yourself!

I mean at least tolerate a little can't you?

I'm in a new environment now and I'm happy with it, please let me enjoy it will ya?

I'll be there for you if you need any help....don't worry about that...just ....give me a little more space...I'm literally suffocating...

I realise

I now believe there's never a fair world.

Looks, face it~when everyone searches for partners, looks is definitely in that category....

The only thing that can change is that work hard for your own and fight to fit in the right place where you want to be~

That's the cruel but real life.

Expectations

I think I'm expecting too much or thinking too much about people~

Adam's right~I can't expect those newcomers to know who I am, that's why I have to take 1 step ahead, that's what a senior should do~

I learnt that. Thanks Adam.

unacceptable

until now still unable to accept the fact that I have "fainted" for almost 3 hours!!!

does panadol makes people drowsy?

I think I can't sleep tonight~

school.sick

Never in my KTJ life I felt that freakin boring!!!!

Unless it's because I feel feverish....

spoken to cj ong today~wow, he certainly grown,especially the voice, hahahahaha!

he actually didn't remember me, even after I said my name...:(

maybe he'll remember if I said I was the monitor, or maybe because I 'm supposed to tell my chinese name...

Woohoo!!! tomorrow they'll be receiving their induction thingy~haha! time to do something evil....

well, at least induction thingy cheers me up~I hope it last as long as possible because it's like the best thing ever to do in KTJ :)

Met a few new girls, but got closer with Han Li and Sze Hwei from my house ^^ they're really awesome people, at least they look professional and not slick~

that's all for now, they're far more stories but I'm really sick and have tonnes of homework to do~c u l8tr~

oxford, cambridge, harvard...

I just wanna be a singer!

Money and Happiness, oh yeah~

These days, people anguish, fight, cry, shout, fear

all for the name of MONEY.

Eventually, people are convinced by these vague, virtual, stupid matters

and now started to treat others the same way, just not physically but mentally brain wash you to learn to be a realistic person.

So, this is life.

Hell yeah! so what if I suffer on the streets?!

I'll still the proudest person in the world of myself even if I'm starving in cold, just because I've achieved something that I've wanted all this while~

Why I did this now purely because I want to make the money spent worth it.

I'm not completely happy being in the situation I am right now.

I'm creating happiness myself to keep me from going mad.

I'm making the money spent worth it now, and it will continue for the next 3, 4 years.

When I'm finished, I must gather all the courage to take one step out of boundaries.

I might regret and envy, looking those friends in great joy, though not being in the best colleges.

but I don't think I'll ever regret not getting myself in the best school because I'm happy with what I've had and money can't buy it.

If I own something that money can't buy it, then I'm certain that it'll be easy for me to get a job that I want to, because it's a true passion coming from my heart.

……

罗马不是一天内完成的……

哈~站在悬崖边，已经倾向往下掉的方向了……

这样跌下去不是容易吗？和死神拚一命如何？

回头，那勇气固然重要，但回头能做什么？

那，比找回勇气更难……

回头要干嘛？懂了，看到了方向，那没关系~

看不到方向，前途茫茫，那又有何处呢？

天青色等烟雨，而我在等你~

多希望这是最后的结局~

Music today

Now I know why my music taste is deteriorating...

because song nowadays are getting worse and I never realize that until I go back and listen song in few years back...

such a huge difference.....

At least I know I'm not getting deaf XD