This is Me :D

You are realistic, confident, happy, and talented in education, music, art,
singing, and most importantly in acting. You also have a bad temper! You value
your family status a lot; you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain
age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls. Most of the number 7s faces
lots of problems with their married life. Only a few are happy. You have
everything in your life but with worries throughout your lifetime. You need to
get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you
might end-up being single. You are born to contribute to everyone's joy.

Coincidence

So the last time I mentioned about how coincident it is with the movie "Flipped", here's another one-The Invention of Lying.

This movie basically talks about the life before lying was invented. So, everything was spoken in a very blunt way, you speak what you think and the people do not have any religion.

My point of this article is, my teacher recommended me this movie last night, so I said, ok let's have it. Just now, well, 2pm just had their concert here so I went to their twitter to check out any tweets about their Malaysia concert. Holy crap nichkhun tweeted this:

Must see movie, "The Invention Of Lying" Directed and played by Ricky Gervais co-starring with Jennifer Garner! Great concept for thoughts!

Haha! how coincident is that? And this was tweeted 16 hours ago, which would be yesterday <333 anyway, having high expectations from this movie and looking forward for more coincidence with this movie :D Adios!

My destiny with this movie-Flipped

Yesterday: Just watched this awesome movie yesterday after the recommendation of a friend.

Today: Picked up a going-to-be-recycled entertainment magazine, the September issue. Saw Yesung of Suju recommended this movie on twitter, in September, I just watched it yesterday, today I saw this.

At night just now: Read the entertainment section of newspaper, saw them introducing the main female character of this movie, stating "Flipped" as one of her notable works.

People who needs love and wants to know more about relationships, WATCH THIS MOVIE. Danke.

Being Myself

First and foremost, I must say I'm very sorry to people whom I've just complain to, and thank you for listening to me, thank you people lots for making me feel so much better.

Ok, I know that problems or habits couldn't be solved in one day, but I gotta always remind myself this:

DON'T WORRY! JUST GIVE YOUR BEST TO EVERYTHING AND GET INTO THE BEST UNIVERSITY YOU CAN GET!

sometimes, to feel better, miss C actually think of the worst things that could happen and yeah~turns out that things weren't that bad either right? Just like last time during Taekwondo, I never fail to freak out every week but when that time comes, yeah~it wasn't that bad either right? unless there's more horror-making cells inside me? XD

Be yourself is a knowledge that I've obtained for a very long time but never attained, even now I dare to say, being myself is still a big lesson for me to learn. I tend to worry too much about how people think of me,

what this people think, how about that one, what does she think? Oh , I can't act like that because later she'll be thinking that I'm like this then she wouldn't befriend with me...

U KNOW WHAT?! SCREW THAT!

Screw the facebook ticker, I first thought it would be a benefit to me coz now I'll know what these people are doing and I'll follow them coz this is what they do to get closer friends~

OH SHIT! I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY DID THAT!

Life is worth more than UK, stop worrying about it, even if I screwed my CIE papers or whatever, don't ever be too worried over that ok? Don't go jump down a cliff because of that few stupid papers, they ain't nothing~

Just do what you have right now. LNAT, ok, focus on LNAT. A2 history and economics. ok, focus on those. Even if I've shitted in AS,don't bother to give a damn about it.Screw and forget it.

Those people who loves me, appreciates me won't ditch me. They will never blame me in the end. It's not a method of consoling myself, but it's just telling myself to not to be over-worried about things, it’s forgiving yourself the mistakes that I’ve made. That’s not a wrong thing to do, I also have a life and I need to treat it well. If you really evaluate everything till the very deep root of it, it's actually contradictory. That's why someone has to step back, something has to be sacrificed. Well, then would you like to sacrifice your time to work hard on the present and believe in possibilities or miracles even though you might be let down, or spend your time worrying about the past, finding the reason and blaming it all on yourself, figuring that it's all your fault and nobody would understand that, and keep thinking how could you fix it for sure when there might not even have an answer and making yourself depressed?

To those people who would like to judge me as someone not filthy rich or not a genius or not a scholar, well go ahead~I have no rights to control your mind. But remember, you're not worth even a little dust to me. I don't have to prove to you how great am I, I just need to make my life happy and satisfying and that's it. Feel free to broaden your imagination on my future~

To be honest, I have to say I'm also a person like that and I can't change it by tomorrow. I cannot guarantee when I'll totally eliminate this judgmental characteristic but I'll try.

There are certain people out there that I really admire and hope to be with them. Being with them makes me feel popular though I'm hurt by them so many times. I'm not happy with that.

and believe it or not, they managed to make me starting to be like them. Honestly, though I have a feeling that that's not me, but I still believe that I made the right choice to be realistic in order to survive in this society. Hmm...between right choice and being myself.....I think what's important is to go with something I'm comfortable with~Anyway, I believe that even by being myself, these people would still be my friends, no screwing each other or hating on each other, just friends to make up some spice in life :)

Let tomorrow be a good day, try to minimize all the things that I mentioned just now, feel good, don't hate or be jealous of other people. It's not all your fault. I'm good.

Phew, come to think of it, law will never be justified. When someone is justified, there must be other things not justified. That's where toleration should come into the picture. There's always an opportunity cost to every choice we've made.

Be strong girl! Be a brave one! Be yourself!

Guess I was wrong thinking that you would be my one. Whatever~screw it and I'll just forget you.

i'm reaaaddyyy

So today I finally got a taste to hear people that have been to UK describing about prices of stuff there. IT'S HELLA EXPENSIVE. Finally, I've decided not to go to UK unless I get like what? Nottingham? Maybe then I'll go. Imagine having one meal there for RM500, how on earth am I gonna survive there? Plus, according to them the food there sucks and you basically gotta bring your stuff, spices etc...one-way air ticket, RM6000+, I seriously think it's gonna be a huge burden on my parents. But now I've applied UCAS and LNAT, there's also money there, can't just waste it....whatever lah, just take it first and see how's my offer going on~But I guess most probably I won't be going to UK because of the super high living cost (this just applies to me) and I'm perfectly happy with that~I certainly don't have the luxury to just go any UK universities there and live a beautiful UK life~I HAVE to go to those super good ones, which is pretty much impossible~But nevermind, there's always so many places in this world to go to, UK is not the end of it, so yeah~not getting into UK, I won't be any sad~Anyway, if I get to UK,I'll be living like a beggar for 3 friggin years, who wants that when everyone's living a happy life there and I gotta think of whether got money buy this or that...so right now, I'm ready to say BYE BYE UK :D

lalala

这段时间，真的很辛苦，一直会后悔、懊恼……

最糟糕的是，会常常比较，会说“他有奖学金，这辈子甭烦了~；他家里有的是钱，读什么大学都好，都是能出国的……我这人呢，就站在中间，既没有奖学金，且家里不是很有钱的。”

说实在的，现在也是还没完全明白到底是我，还是哪里出了问题，是我？还是老师？还是什么？

考试成绩不理想，又不想，也不能retake,那全是父母的血汗钱啊……所以一旦考不好真的很想死了算了，想想下，其实这种感觉已不是仅仅一次了……

最怕的是，老爸说，如果进不了英国前五，那不如留在本地读，也能省他们的钱……

问题是，我不是那种料的人，进退两难啊~我会跟我爸说，我不是那种料的人，不过心里其实一直都也不舍得放弃那梦想。。总觉得，就这么靠近了，就差这么一步了，为什么要放弃？！

难过啊……怎么办耶。。。

今天最糟的是，老师还是不肯提高我的B。。。当下真的很想杀人！！！

那个可是决定我的命运的一颗啊！！

现在要申请大学，也是在等着这个A啊~

看看身边的朋友每个都在讨论着，英国这个，英国那个，考试也全部考一次就A了，我到现在还是一无所成……多令人生气呢？！

现在感觉像个悬在钢线上的人，不知该向前，还是向后……