YES

YES, I wasn't born with a silver spoon.

YES, I have a better life than many others who worked harder than me but didn't exactly get what they wanted.

YES, I looked lucky to have such an education.

YES, I won't complain anything about it because I appreciate it in any way.

YES, I am destined to work harder than anyone else.

YES, I won't complain about any stress because I chose to push my limit.

YES, I chose this route and I chose not to turn back anymore.

YES, I know this harsh period will get through and I'll be freed someday.

YES, I have faith in myself that all my hard work that I devoted will pay off someday.

YES, I chose the harder route but I'll never regret because I made this choice ON MY OWN.

R.I.P.

A tortured soul yet a music genius~

You've sacrificed good life to contribute all of you to music~

You gave music another evolution and made it more exciting!

R.I.P. Amy Winehouse~

成功

看看今天那些真正算传奇的歌手，都是多年来对自己的坚持，多年来没想过放弃的人~

虽说在那圈子里需要运气，我说那更适合那些要快成名的人吧~

无论哪一种开始，最终能拿下第一，成功的人，是那些没有因为一些事儿选择放弃的人，

要拿第一，只是时间上的问题而已~

我要做好自己，给自己的生命一个好的交代~

I don't mind if people never forget the price tag

but I hope people do forget competition~

because of competition, I torture myself~

=.=

知不知道当一个人显得很很很，异常地开心时，其实是因为心里有说不出的难过和寂寞~

最近寂寞了，再加上听着很伤感却很好听的抒情曲，心里更落寞了……

这地方大概不会有人看吧~所以内容也越来越隐秘都没关系了~

好！就坦白说~好想有个男朋友啊！！！！（羞羞）

所以迷上“个人取向”了。。。一个以前根本就没兴趣去看的韩剧，再加上看到李民浩更倒胃了~

现在。。。。现在。。。李民浩真的很帅啊~

很想要向男主角那样的男朋友来关心我……

更怪的是，现在眼睛变得很尖，随时就看到靓仔，就开始幻想了~

这可以是疏解压力的方法吗？

而且最近竟然无缘故地唱不到歌了！！！堆积的压力不知道要从哪里出了……

看到朋友的慰问，其实真的很想就痛快的哭一场，可是还是忍了。。因为每天都得见人，眼睛可不能肿得像金鱼啊~

就酱吧~继续加油！！！

阴晴

有时候会觉得全世界都在和你造反

当你成功找到个角度去换来看，世界瞬间会变得晴朗~

即使是重复做同样的事都无所谓~

Aargh!!!!!

Bored....don't feel like eating anything yet hungry....

what is this? anorexia?

bluek~

distressing theorem

Sore throat, allergies, unfinished work, dull family, not enough $$!!!
I feel the abstract stress choking around my neck!!!

The whole week I tried to be conscious about every single thing that I'm doing so that I make sure I didn't do things that will let time flies instead of crawling or walking.

Yes. I did waste time, on TV and internet I guess~

ok, leave that aside, I was told to even give up on watching TV in order to score a scholarship.

I have to get a scholarship or else going to UK is completely impossible.

I used to think it's ok to spend a little more $ because I still have the chance to get a scholarship.

Now that that dream had burst, I really don't know what to do except for saving $.

I get really sensitive and angry nowadays if we spend $ on things that I think is unnecessary~because I know there's still more expenses had to be spent in this year.

Having a scholarship is not an alternative anymore but a must in order to get me to UK.

I really don't know what I'm doing right now is worth it or not~

I realized I tend to avoid my academic stuff when I face difficulties because those difficulties just freaks me out!

The worst part is no one is there for me when things looks bad~

Whenever I start to talk, they'll start frowning and open their sentences with"After half a year and all the $ spent~"

All I can say is that I'm just saying, there's no big deal about it.

It is a big deal in me.

I won't lie. Law doesn't seem to like me very much.

I'm trying really hard to get familiar with it but it just ignores me.

Tell me please~that this is just a turning point that everyone will face in their life at least once.

That might make me feel better.

I want to success. like....seriously successful.

I expect myself being in UK, able to deal with serious business.

Until now, this seems to be more than I can dream, I just couldn't imagine myself like that.

Tell me please~it's ok, it's alright~

You're good in this, you just didn't notice that~

Lie to me. I rather you lie to me than telling me the ugly truth.

I even try to lie to myself.

Because I know there's no more turning back after I made my choice.

It feels really bad and rotten when you're down and you try to consult someone that you can trust and all you get is

"Then what do you want me to do?!"(with a frowning face)

now I understand why people commit suicide~it's not that they didn't try...

They tried but people just wouldn't listen~and in the end they are still the ones to be blamed for being stupid and ending their lives.

I'm not that stupid.

I want to see how far my life can go if I do my best until the day God really wants me.

I do hope to see myself at 80 years old.

I want a change.

That's why I learnt things about how and what to do to love myself.

The two words "Love Myself" is very strong because it is the only thing that could drive me to strive for a better me and better future.

I'm still living the life I used to live until I can imagine myself in 5 years time, still living like a loser, a lazy bug.

I want to be motivated. I want to learn things that I've never learn before, for example, baking.

I want to find new excitement from it.

I can't. I'm still my parents child and I have a tendency to follow whatever my parents said.

I can't bake because my mum doesn't have enough time to bake together.

I don't wanna bake alone for my first time!

I can't go swimming because my siblings have loads of tuition that they couldn't miss~there's never a time for them to let me swim.

and some said I don't even have enough time to study~which hints that I shall do nothing other than eating, sleeping and studying.

IS THIS FAIR?!

I avoid. Avoid by trying to look for new excitements from the net but sadly I can't find any.

I have to excel in sports in order to get my scholarship.

I'm horrible in sports. Literally.

Am I trying to hard to push my limit~what if i breakdown?

I'm so afraid that the road I've taken is the wrong path again...I don't wanna get it wrong anymore~

but things just feel so stressed when I have no choice but to get a scholarship and I MUST get into the top universities like Cambridge so that I can secure a scholarship. I can't imagine how would that man react if I fail to get into Cambridge. I would so be blamed for making the wrong choice and taking the wrong course.

I was forced to take accounting but I don't want because I've already chose law.

However, it's still nice to care about me by buying those books~

but I can't finish those books. It's just pure stress.

I want everything. That's the problem.

I can't afford to lose anything.

but I couldn't cope everything.

It's devastating to know that if you don't meet the bar level, you're not going to UK.

I'm already half way to UK.

I don't know being in my school is a great choice or not but I'M ALREADY HERE.

I'm not gonna waste any time or flush those cash away by gaining nothing but memories.

Those memories would be way too expensive.

However to achieve that I have to be SERIOUSLY GOOD.

I'm not blaming any party but seriously, I'm not born to be a genius.

The guy who's going to Cambridge, his parents are doctors.

I'm not trying to say that only professionals' children are able to get into prestigious universities but I hate to hear people telling me that "Just work hard, you can do it~"

Well that may sound really pleasant but work hard, in other words means, nothing except for sleeping, eating and studying.

That certainly is giving my best but I doubt any man kind would be able to do that.

traits and genes definitely play a part in here, maybe a small one, but still, a part.

Leaving aside anyone that's involved for not getting me into prestigious universities, I deeply regretted for not working hard enough and fooling around throughout my high school years.

I wouldn't doubt that it had enhance my creativity in performing arts a lot~but I had to pay a whole lotta price there...it's not that worth it though~

Maybe whatever that I'm going through right now is just a taste of the real world~

it indicates that I have to work really hard to stand out among competitors.

That's why they keep saying that how am I going to face the real world if I can't even handle this kind of problem~it sounds really devastating but yeah~it's true in some sense~

Well actually, I'm sort of a spoil rotten baby in some way because I start to feel the stress on me when I start to do house chores, for example.

Like what happened on Wednesday, mum knew my burning passion to kick off baking ASAP~so she just told me to fry rice on my own that afternoon. My first reaction is feeling like a maid and nobody cares about me anymore~

but it's a good way to be independent.

But I have to say, it's pretty late to be independent.

and it's unfair to throw me something without any guidance.

ok I admit it, I did not observe when she's cooking but...idk...it feels really harsh on me :(

It feels like a baby thrown into the jungle to survive on its own~

Nevertheless, I should not aim too high, I mean I don't think I can secure everything although it's possible to achieve in this world but sorry, it's just not me.

Yeah, I've gotta learn to say no to some things because it doesn't make you a loser anyway~

All I can do is do my best~I won't try to push my limit now(or else I'll die or suffer) but I have to be ready for every highs and lows. Be happy when it's good news but don't be too sad either if it's bad news.

That's how I'll be happy in life because I CHOSE MY LIFE.

Fine!

I love you, but you don't want to love yourself,

FINE!

One day you'll realise your mistake...

not today, not tommorrow~

but once you got it, THERE'S NO TURNING BACK!!!

If my future husband said this to me....

Mr. Darcy: Then what endearments am I allowed?

Elizabeth: Well let me think; 'Lizzie' for everyday, 'My Pearl' for Sundays, and 'Goddess Divine' - but only on very special occasions.

Mr. Darcy: And what shall I call you when I am cross? Mrs. Darcy?

Elizabeth: No, no. You may only call me Mrs. Darcy when you are completely and perfectly and incandescently happy.

Mr. Darcy: And how are you this evening, Mrs. Darcy?

天无不散之筵席

Time flies.
Remember the first week coming here, I've started countdown-ing the days to my first exeat, now here I am, still in KTJ, but graduating my Lower 6 tommorrow. Indeed, it is a happy thing to us because we're gonna DOMINATE THE SCHOOL!!!muahahaha!!! but....I still feel a piece of puzzle missing in my heart~I feel....lost....without seniors....

I swear to god or whoever it is, this my first time being so nostalgic and the first time, I DON'T WANNA LEAVE KTJ. I want time to freeze. Can we turn back time? No matter good or bad memories I don't mind going through it again because I miss all of you guys~

I never ever thought of what's the recipe that of these mixed feelings~I've been in my previous schools for 5,6 years but never once I felt that sad and reluctant to see them go~it's always"Yeah! I'm gonna be a senior and the juniors are gonna listen to us. " I even felt noble because of being through all the hardship and problem faced by normal teenagers. But now, I've only know you guys for like, 6 months? and I feel like 6 years already~is it because we lived under the same roof or what?

I guess, the recipe is mix love, share and care together to create money can't buy memories~

Thank you so much to all my seniors who had gave us limitless love and care for us and lend us your helping hand whenever we need help regardless of "do I know you or not" .In KTJ, we don't say Hi to everyone, but we help EVERYONE who needs help. You guys have made me grown to a mature person and let me learn a lot of priceless lessons.

Thanks to Stanley who had been an amazing, wonderful, da best head boy I've ever met! Thank you for being with me going through all the hardship and giving me essential advices and always giving that big smile~

Thank you Sara, Grace, Ameenah, Daryl, Stanley who had been a fantastic role model to me which motivates me to keep working! Thanks to Fiona, Zhi Yin, Daniel, Henin, Christine and a lot more for the care to me, I couldn't thank you guys more!!!You guys are my idols :)

Thank you Adeline who had been a great role model for me to follow~I do hope that we still can meet each other in UK.

Thanks Liyana and Lilian for the care and cupcakes, you guys also taught me a lot. Thank you Anisah for your craziness but yet serious in studies.

Thank YOU Christopher for giving me an UNFORGETTABLE MEMORY during induction~it's so efficient! I'll never forget youuuu!!!

Thanks to ALL ALIA seniors for being such a great senior to us, it's gonna be a tough job to follow your footsteps but we'll guarantee that ALIA would continue our glory and it just keeps getting better~

Last but not least, all the pre-Alia leaving juniors, Doory, Weinissa, Joey, Joung Won...although I didn't have tonnes of memories with you guys, but I'll never forget you guys for being such a great Alian and a great friend!!

GOODBYE~FAREWELL~I'LL MISS YOU GUYS~PLEASE DO COME BACK!!!

p/s: I think I'm gonna cry tommorrow....see first...

PLUMET

Whilst Angry Birds are trending like hot cakes around the world, the birds seem to be unable to pass to the walls of KTJ~(or it just lost their way in the middle of the woods :P), whereas this dude managed to capture the attention of KTJ residents and spread like a disease, plague or something, idk~I guess it just managed to go under ground and dig a hole and saw KTJ and decided to spread the disease and....(creative XD)

Anyway, Plumet is just a very simple game-just keep jumping down so that you won't get squashed by the screen. Apparently, none of the KTJ residents bother about Angry Birds but PLUMET!!! From the score board, I swear there is just 2 non-KTJ-ians who are playing this game!Funny thing is, yet no one care to find out who the culprit is that started all this crap, haha!! Whatever it is, I'm also infected to this game! To be positive, it is a test of speed and attention~Try it! but not during exam weeks.

I hope....this will come true

Not all dreams and our fantasies will come true, some is because of luck, while some is because of our greediness which leads to an unrealistic fantasy. The picture shown at left looks like a fantasy wonderland, however it does exist and it is possible to go to that place, therefore this is realistic. However, to have such a huge dream is pretty much impossible judging upon my results.

This place is Clare College, Cambridge.

Cambridge requires a 4A* predicted grades and lots of luck and blah blah blah to get into it. I'm half way there, but this picture will be my biggest motivation that lead me to the road of becoming a studious nerd. Oh yeah~I'm gonna work my a** off for it~

This is another college that I wanted to get into, apparently it is the most famous college for law. The only flaw of this school is that musicians or people who loves music are not encouraged to go there because this is, I think this is the college who provides one of the worst music facilities and there are a load of athletes here, which would be quite a hell for me for 3 years. Haiz~or else I wouldn't even consider other schools and just get into this school. Problem solved.

To be honest there are still a few colleges out there which is in my consideration list beacuse of it's damn gorgeous scenery!!! Including places like Pembroke, Sidney Sussex and much more who have a super nice view! How tempting is that~Whatever it is, I don't mind them pooling me to other colleges PROVIDED the schools are old and artistic with a nice scenery and not too many drunk or snobbish people around~others, NO THANKS!