Saturday, February 8, 2014

Raw pieces-Pretend #nofilter

Lying on the ground
Besides breathing, no more sound
With much guilty pleasure
We enjoy putting ego before forgiveness
Repeating the same mistake again
And again this malicious cycle never ends.

I don’t want to pretend (no more)
Even if we just be friends
Talking to each other   is much better
Than staying silent instead

I’m tired of pretend…ing
Why can’t we just shake hands
And forget the past
Who says awkward will remain the truth
Who says we have to remain misunderstood
As long as someone takes the first step

It takes two to dance
But I’m here dancing with your ghost
And pretend nothing has change



Loving you is like flu
You know what’s gonna happen
You hate to face it but it’ll still come to you
Some prefer to let time work their magic
Some prefer to find a way to cure it

You are the least person I could talk to
At the same time you are the first person I want to talk to
Reality could be pain in the ass
But for you I still choose to hide the truth

I’m desperate to know what’s in your mind
But more question marks is all I could find
One foot after another I carefully make each step
But all I get is another step back

I fake a smile so you won’t see my heart wrenched
Pretend, pretend, pretend
Till tears they won’t flow again

I can only see you from far
I can only reach you like stars
So you can’t see me cry
Well, I doubt you would even ask why

More thinking will only be me putting on a show
I don’t want to
So just let me continue to pretend
Pretend I’m fine
Pretend I don’t mind
Pretend you were never on my mind
I know it won’t hurt you to but it hurts me to
Pretend like nothing ever happened.

“Whassup”
“Yo!”
There I go again I pretend
There I go again like those pain were never there



How could you rub salt on my scars
You irresponsible jerk
I gave myself such a hard time to make sure I’m not blaming any innocent person wrong
You abuse my scars
You think it was probably a convenient reason that wasn’t gonna hurt
I must be pretending so well that you think everything’s ok

You cut me and then forget
And then cut me again
Made sure they never stop bleeding
Me, on the other side, with those invisible handcuffs
Even if it hurts, I can’t move a step
You’re wrong if you think I’m the willing victim.

You peeled me off, layer by layer
Each layer I cried, I cried for you till I’m all dried up
Thinking how you are not thinking of me
Not knowing I’m alone crying for something stupid.

You broke my fragile heart
As if the pieces weren’t fine enough
You picked it up and broke them up again
Until they were fine as dust
Blown away and never to be found.

I’m crying for you not putting me in my mind
I’m crying for myself crying over this kind of stupid things
I’m crying over myself for being so stupid

You’d probably say I took it upon myself
I just want someone to listen
A shoulder to cry on
I want yours to be the one
But I know you could never be the one

I’m not physically tired
But emotionally mentally extremely tired

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